Must Move FORWARD!!!

I love reading fantasy stories. Especially those that are about a world/worlds that just sprouted from somebody's over-imaginative, over-free or over-active mind. Among my favorites are Diana Wynne Jone's Chrestomanci series, Robert Jordan's the Wheel of Time series, and definitely J.R.R Tolkien's The Lord of the Rings (you can't say you are a fan of fantasy until you've read this). The world has lost great minds... most recently Diana Wynne Jones... she was my favorite author of all time.

Anyway, in these stories there are beautiful women, beautiful men, magic powers, fantastic adventures... anything that would ordinarily never happen in our own dull, mundane world. But one thing I am most particularly fond of is the BATTLES! Most of the time (if not all the time), fantasy stories revolve around many battles, chief among theses the battle of Good VS Evil. There is something just so fascinating about this theme. Many stories, not just fantasy stories center about this theme. What is so intriguing about Good and Evil? ... ... I have no answer to that... it's just a thought, a Muse,you might say, considering the title of my blog.

So what has the title of this post got to do with all the above? Well, recently I have been feeling rather down... among them being my poor exam results, and also certain personal issues that I'll be d*mn if I am going to share them online for everyone to view xD... I was sitting down basically reminiscing(is that the word?) on the past and trying to understand Add. Math, when suddenly this voice suddenly shouted in my head: 

"FORWARD! FORWARD THE FLAG OF..."

I dunno what went after, but it must have been one of the flags in the fantasy stories I have read. It is a common battle cry, and it's usually shouted when the hero appears when all hope seems lost... I actually was inspired and stopped feeling down for a while! I know it sounds crazy... my problems now are nothing like a battle... but I felt inspired... LOL, maybe you don't, since you aren't a fantasy nut like me, but I hope all of you will leave the past behind and move FORWARD! FORWARD! in your lives :) 

   

New Year's 1st Post ^_^

Okay, what should I write? I ain't gonna make my New Year's resolutions public... Lest. I. Fail. D:

Okay, I'll write something. I MUST write something! This is the first post of the year, on the first DAY of the year, the DECADE, in fact!

Oh... but I just did write something. 'kay then~

Happy New Year to all Earthlings, be you animal, plant, bacteria, virus, fungi, human, whatever, I wish you all a very Happy New Year!

May all your hopes and dreams

Which in last year failed you

This year help you

May you remember this year

Memories that will make you smile

May you this year

Correct mistakes done in the past.

May you open your eyes each new day

With a joy and hunger for life

May you live through this year

In better condition then the last

May this year give you more happiness then sadness

In every way, at every turn.

May this year be filled with opportunities and blessings

That will help you sail

Like a ship so smoothly in a strong, gentle wind. 

Hope is what every New Year brings,

Dreams, yet to be fulfilled,

Infinite love yet to be shown,

Tears yet to be cried,

Laughter yet to be sounded,

Music, yet to be heard,

Stories yet to be written,

Books yet to be read,

Places yet to be visited,

Beauty yet to be seen,

Joys yet to be discovered,

Lessons yet to be learned,

LIFE, yet to be lived. 

Wishing you a Happy New Year this 2011~^^

Another School Year...

has come and gone... there will be no more classes, no more exams, no more waking up early or waking up five minutes too late for the van, no more seeing friends every single week day, no more... maybe I'm just being sentimental. But that's how I usually feel on the last day of school, like, "I have survived and lived another year..."  

Perhaps that might sound like an exaggeration. Every time the last day of school comes, I look back into the past year and the years before, calculate what I have done, what I have achieved, what mistakes I have made, what new friends I have made and lost, what I have learnt, how I have improved, what places I went to... in short, the end of school... is like the end of a the year for me. It is something significant, because then my life actually feels a change, it is a time for reflection and preparation for the new year. So, what have I done in this past year that I can safely write on the internet? 

1. I actually overcame my fear of public speaking... somewhat... debate did it. Of course, it was in front of only a few people, and my friends were sitting with me. Still, it is an improvement. :D

2. I sat for PMR... DUH, lol... but I believe I was totally unprepared for it, and I could have done better. I regret not having spent more time on it.

3. I have started updating my blog... too regularly x)

4. I overcame my manga addiction.

5. I read only two English books this year... D: The Lost Symbol and some romance that I can't remember anymore... this is some record, because my reading record has not been this low... since I was five (because I was bad at reading then)

6. I read many more Chinese books then English DDX *SHOCK* Blame it on PMR

7. I learnt about AI and Adobe what not because I helped Zhi Xin with the poster xDDD

8. I went for tuition... for BOTH Malay and Chinese... wow, I haven't had tuition since I was in standard 5 (I quit after a two months because instead of improving, my grades took a steep dip)

9. I have made some progress in trying to figure out this boy-girl thingy... HAHAHAAHAAA~ no, I am not les... ==" only I have certain... *cough* perverts for friends.

10. I joined and quit drama... maybe it's because I had no time for it... or maybe it's because I had no talent for it... or maybe I simply didn't like it... or maybe it's some other reason, or ALL... anyway, no regrets.

Anyway, I just wanted to make this because I feel that the Last Day of School should be marked by something... why not a blog post? 

Saying Goodbye

I have said 'Goodbye' so many times, each time we part, we say a simple 'Goodbye, Farewell, Bye, See you..." That time during graduation from Primary School, I told my friends: "Good bye..." There were no tears... but I felt so sad in my heart. I felt that I had wasted what precious time I had to spend just a little time with them, enjoying our friendship--- I have relatives in all parts of the world--- the few that live in Malaysia are constantly traveling--- every time they visit, we say 'Hi' and then we say 'Bye'. I hardly feel sadness or longing when the time to part comes... I have not enjoyed their friendship for long, just a period of courteous conversation over a course of a few days, over a few meals. Rarely is it that one has to say 'good bye', to a friend you have known for so long- that you can't remember when you actually met- She was a childhood friend, and a good one. We have grown up together, influenced each other, shared laughter, shared tears (I think this is an exaggeration xD)... Never once did it cross my mind, that we would one day have to separate... But one day she said: "... I am shifting..." At first, it didn't register... let me admit, I took our friendship for granted. I thought she had always be there--- with her annoying hyperactivity and all x) It's true, haha~ We didn't meet much after Sunday School stopped, mostly kept in touch through FB, MSN and Pastor Lily's trips xD But now, we are saying 'Bye bye" We'll see each other sometimes, perhaps, during the holidays, and rare trips, but it just won't be the same... Oh, well... there will come a time when we will be able to see each other again, life goes on. That's that. So, this isn't 'goodbye', CAMILIA! It's 'SEE YOU LATER!!!!"  Hoho, you ain't getting away from me so easily... *evil smile* 

I found the pic with Google :) Do you see the cross? It's called Galaxy M51 by us, but what God calls it... that's a mystery~

This post is dedicated to Camilia, my best friend, childhood buddy, and the only one I've ever listened seriously to about God X)

...

I stood before the great lake, and looked into it's clear depths. The waters was so deep that I couldn't see the bottom. I looked up, and saw the stretch of infinite blue sky. I couldn't help but wander what was hidden behind and above those billowing snow white clouds. The universe is such great expanse, when I try to imagine the size of the infinite universe, my mind tries to shut down, to stop trying to analyze the impossible. The horrors of the universe actually being finite is also incomprehensible. I cannot fathom the limits of life. What then is outside the limits if the universe is indeed finite? What lies at the outer layer of this dark expanse that holds us? Another universe? Heaven? What then is outside if there is a limit to this sequence? Will it go on forever?

From the mysteries of the world comes questions. From these questions come answers. And from answers come more questions. And there is the ultimate question: Are these questions and answers a circle which will eventually meet in a revelation, or are they endless lines that occasionally meet?

The after PMR list 2

continuing from where I left off previously...

I have watched Inception. The movie was great. But... the ending made me want to throw something at the director/ script writer for giving me such a sh*t happy ending.

okay, so...

6. Grab Camilia and watch a movie and hangout before she moves to Shah Alam.

7. Uh... I remember something, but I can't remember what I was going to write here, LOL.

The After PMR list

 PMR is over~ 

Okay, so what is there to do now that it's over and out??? Hmmm... Well, LOTS... Let me try and list them out...

1. I missed a lot of movies this year, most of them I have forgotten...

a)Iron Man 2

b) Alice in Wonderland

c) Inception

d) Shutter Island

e) Cats and Dogs: The Revenge of Kitty Galore

f) Toy Story 1 2 3 4 

g) ... I can't remember anymore...

2. Clear up all that clutter in the room.

Man, after living in that sty for months I seem to have gotten used to it D=... I am going to throw out everything and anything that has to do with PMR. Ahem, recycle, of course, and hand the down to my brother. *evil laugh*

3. Read something, ANYTHING...

So long as it's not a saucy romance @_@... gee, count out the books I've read this year... I can only remember the Chinese ones I've read. 

4. Hang out and laugh with the friends I have been neglecting so I can study Dx... 

5. ... I'll find out when I get there... xD for now, Cleaning the room comes first... debate, maybe? xD

The Woes of a Student

We have a month left... less... need I remind you?
The schedule is packed, I can't find anymore time...
Yet life goes on, I make sometime,
To spend sometime on what I love most =)

The Whirlwind that is MINE...

Hey~~~ I'm feelin' high. Like my title? I like it too. I haven't read an English book for sometime... I must have read like, only three English books  this year? Let me list them: I read two books from Warriors: The Power of Three, and a romantic, slice-of-life novel What She Wants. Hold on, hold on, I'm still Jasmine here. Aliens haven't abducted me yet. Recently I've read quite a few romances, all of them chinese, 'cause they are quite simple and use very elaborate phrases to describe their... 'romantic scenery' in which the protagonist and her lover meet and fall in love blahblah... To be sure the stories are all nonsense, but I kind of enjoy them 'cause they are funny and light hearted, and I can forget about PMR... It's ironic because I am reading them FOR PMR. What am I crapping? I didn't want to write about that,  but I've forgotten what I was planning to write.

Anyways, I have been down with the flu for... three, four days? And yesterday was the worst I had a headache from the moment I woke up to the moment I put my head on the pillow, around six or seven. No, I didn't eat dinner. LOL, in school I kept complaining about my head throbbing to Shepard and Zhi Xin and they were all trying their best NOT to give me what I wanted, sympathy. And then I thought I had fever 'cause I felt so hot, but my palms were sweating like mad and my face was full of sweat too but I felt so dry. But then Shepard told me that I wasn't hot but COLD! Hehe, but how can that be possible when I felt so hot and feverish? I want to try and touch someone who claims that he/she feels hot but is actually really cold! I'm not sure whether you readers are getting me, 'cause I sure feel rather confused. I have a feeling that this is going to be a really long post. If you haven't given up reading, good for you, sure get A++++ for patience.

And there is the school Carnivel! I am helping in the promotion for PPS. Actually, I was only helping because I thought I might have nothing to do, since our class was doing nothing (besides talking about selling live ayam) and Shepard's friends were coming and Yi Ling's friends were coming and Zhi Xin was helping in both PPS and scout and Ngai was helping in PPS and Jia Hui was also helping elsewhere and Anita, Tiffany and Jensine were probably helping CF, so I was like, what am I going to do, and I went to help out the PPS. How was I to know that our class was going to do anything???  And the PPS are going to show three movies in the PPM, Inception, Om Bak 2 and Predators. I REALLY want to watch Inception, so I hope they put Inception as the first movie, 'cause I can't watch if it's from 11:30- 3:00, because I am on duty, and I don't know WHY I agreed to duty for so long??? Zhen shi bai lei...

Is there anything more to write about? So much has happened this week, and I can't quite remember what I was planning to write about in the beginning. my memory is getting worse and worse by the day, because it is being used more and more and I am worried that it is reaching it's limit. I wish there was a USB slot to download info into my head so I wouldn't have to remember all those useless facts that I will clean forget once I go up to form 4.

Yes, I remember something. If my friend is reading this right now, I hope she knows that it is she I am writing this to. Finding it hard to speak face to face, i resort to the underhand method of writing, but this is a modern way, writing on a blog, hehe... anyway, I don't advice this friend to forget, because it is impossible to forget. I ask her instead to treasure the happiness and learn from the sadness, and look to the future. Life is not easy, but we can still enjoy it, if we learn not to cling to the past and learn to look forward to what the future holds. No matter how much bitterness the past may hold, the future still holds sweetness, and pray it will last to the end...

I am still the same Jasmine, man. Do not expect me to go around spouting that sort of cheesy stuff in ordinary circumstances. I just wanted to get that of my chest because I really love my friends, all of them. I did not write that, some one else hacked into my blog.

Signing of, missing Facebook and starting to regret, CLQJasmine. (But for Germany I shall remain in my pitiful state until after PMR!!!)

The following is the story of my week in pictures, because I have trouble finding words to describe how I have felt =)

 

Some of them I put 'coz I like how they look, but some really made me think, yeah, I really felt like that...

A Run Down of the First Half of the Year.

The first half of the year has come and gone. It feels like it was only just yesterday that I was looking at the calender and going "Cheah, PMR so far away, later then study lah." T^T I regret saying that. Now, time is precious, there is a limited supply of it. I am starting to feel all worked up on how I've wasted all that time. I really must practice some self control and discipline (LOTS of it) and start trying to make time. It is possible, though it makes you real sleepy. This holidays is the last chance I have to study properly for my exams and I really have to be serious if I want to get straight A's. It is unfortunate that we have to study language. Sometimes I wander why God had to make things so difficult for us. Why didn't he give us a single universal language? Life would be so much easier than.

It hasn't been such good first half of the year, i will list these down in no order, just with numbers so it's easier to jot them down.

1. Manchester United LOST to the EPL to Chelsea by ONE point. (CAN YOU BEAT THOSE BLUE CLOWNS????)
2. For the first time ever, I got a B for Sejarah... It felt like i had failed...
3. Megan Fox OUT of Transformers... NOOOOOOOO.....
4. It just wasn't so peaceful in the house this year.
5. I MISSED SO MANY GREAT MOVIES!!!!!! But I've forgotten some of them already... I wanted to watch Ironman 2, Shrek Forever, Prince of Persia, so many I've forgotten them...
6. I wish I didn't suddenly have feel stressed out of the blue for no reason other than exams.
7. I really wish we didn't have so many problems.

But there are things to be happy about too.

1. I got such GREAT friends... I can't list them out 'cause I might forget to list one of them and it might cause a misunderstanding. You can't blame me. I don't have much memory left in my tiny brain, it's full of PMR facts and i have to leave some space for even more facts. Perhaps it's time to purchase another 10 GB pendrive?
2. I get to watch KYO KARA MAOH!!! GREAT comedy, GREAT story and GREAT guys =)
3. Konrad's looks + [(Gwyndel's + Wolfram's) AWESOME personalities] = MY PERFECT GUY =D
4. Thank goodness debate is over and out... 

For the year before us, there are things to hope for =)

1. WORLD CUP!!!! GERMANY GOGOGOGOGOGO GOOOOOOOOAAAAAALLLLLLL!!!!!!
2. After PMR ...T^T but first, PMR....
3. My FRIENDS
4. KYO KARA MAOH!!!!!
5. A happier time? Less problems?
6. Studying... BE ENTHUSIASTIC, MAN!!!!
7. I'm a MAN =D
8. ? If I could predict everything, Life would be BORING.

Anyway, that's all for now. Wish me Good Luck. Wish YOU Good Luck, Wish Us all Good Luck, Don't we all need it? God Bless You All, have a BRILLIANT, FASCINATING, MARVELOUS second half of 2010.