There are times when you just feel so down and out and times when you just want to lie down and wait for death. They are more or less one and the same. It happens to people of all age groups, regardless. But it usually happens to the older, more experienced, wiser people.... or so, they say. Sometimes, I feel like that too. Sometimes, like right now. Right now, feeling so tired, so down, so out, for no good reason at all. 

Why? Why?  Why?

I don't know... hormones, is that it? No, it's the world in general. I cannot take the reality anymore anymore anymore anymore anymore... Just want to lie down and give it up give it up give it up. But living is an instinct, how many people walk the earth, a body with no spirit and no soul, that smiles at you but behind those eyes lies nothing nothing. It's empty just empty nothing but lies. 

Drama Practice

Finally, something to write about.

We had drama practice yesterday :D

Of course, it didn't really go as planned because there was some activity (check-stock) going on outside, and everyone kept running in and out of the multimedia to help.

The script underwent a lot of changes...

Quite fun, I had say :X

Got pretty good actors <3

------ come to think about it, not much to write, but at least it's something~ If I went into detail, it had take hours to finish...

Hello...

HELLO! *echoes* HELLO!

I am so tired.

Updating this blog is not fun anymore :(

So I just wanted to make it look a teeny bit livelier...

So here is this post.

Now I am saying goodbye again, because there really isn't anything of interest to type about these days.

Oh... man, this is so *sob* touching... :'(

The Many Intriguing Cures for Acne

(not sure if they will work, because well, I never tried them) And I never had reason to try them because I have never suffered from acne very much, though no doubt some of you vain, frilly ladies (and some gentlemen) may think differently. After doing some research (for a school assignment) I discovered that I too was an unknowing sufferer of acne! D: I have a few (actually, quite a lot) of white heads on my forehead, and black heads on my nose >< Now you all know my secrets!!! Though if you looked at me carefully you had know anyway, so oh, well... Oh, and I also have an occasional pimple or two on my face (usually either on my nose or forehead, though once or twice I had it on my cheeks). According to www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov, acne is a common skin disease that causes excessive 'oiling' or 'sebuming'... (sebum is the human body's natural oil) which clogs up your pores and gives you blackheads, whiteheads and painful pimples. The blackheads, I believe, (I did not really read through carefully) is caused by *gasp* rancid oil clogging your pores!!! EWWWWWW... I am not really sure what whiteheads are, but the site said that it was a collection of skin and oil... what does that mean? 


Anyway... coming to the topic of my blogpost. I was researching home remedies, what you could find in your own home that you could put on your acne to make it go away. Well, I guess I hit on normal stuff like toothpaste and baking soda and lime... but there are other things :)


YOUR OWN URINE...


Some people actually tried it, and it worked :o if the internet is actually to be trusted. There was this guy, I think it was on www.homeremedies.com, he or she (come to think of it) collected some of the urine and dabbed it on the pimples with a cotten bud. AND IT WORKED! *GASP* Well... I don't really have the right to speak, but even if I had a severe case of acne, with acne all down to my butt, h*ll, no way am I going to do THAT!


Garlic


Yuck. Having that smell lingering all over your face after applying it. Apparently it works because it has anti-inflammatory (however you spell the word) properties and will stop your acne from becoming all red and puffy... ah, but do not despair. Apparently mint (I am not sure what species) works just as well.All hail mint!


Apple Cider Vinegar


I dunno about the Westerners, but seeing this on the list gave me quite a turn. Applying vinegar to our face...BATHING with it. OMGosh. I was most skeptical regarding this 'cure' because I had learnt in school that it was the acidity of the sebum that made your acne inflamed. What good would it be to apply vinegar, which probably has a pH level of 3 or something along there? But a lot of people, all Westerners, I believe, are willing to swear by it. I guess there must be something behind this. Okay, colds, fevers, body odour, acne... Is this some sort of miracle cure? I, a South East Asian, seriously doubt it. But you never know, maybe the genetic make up of the Westerners help them. Weird people, them. 


There are some other stuff, I suppose, many of them include recipes, some Chinese, some African, other cultures... I believe some of them involved... ummm... stuff, you can imagine, huh?


Oh, and I discovered some interesting stuff. Did you know, the Greek Philosophers Aristotle and Socrates actually wrote about acne? Some of the Pharaohs of Egypt actually suffered from acne. Hehe~ and the ancient Romans believed it was contagious. Imagine, I wonder what would have happened if they decided to keep all acne-sufferers at bay like lepers. They had probably become extinct, because all the teenagers would have it! HAHAHAAHHAAAA... okay, not funny, but still...

Feeling Gloomy

I am feeling gloomy. It's not an emotion I tend to take much notice of unless I am bored, but there it is, I am in fact quite busy right now, yet I feel so gloomy... Not the pleasant, gloomy feeling you get on a sunless or rainy day. It's the I am so lonely, so aimless sort of gloomy I am feeling now. Perhaps it is because I just miss my friends at school. I miss acting the unpredictable one, the one that never acts in the way other people want, the one that says the most remarkably silly things that some people seem to think is AWESOME, and say so... I feel so flattered, then. I even miss having homework and stuff like that. I even miss my TEACHERS. Gosh... sometimes I wish I had tuition. Sometimes... is this human nature? Why are we so confusing? I have been trying for a long time to robotify myself, without success. Whenever I feel I may have succeeded, something crops up and I burst out laughing or crying... What am I TALKING about?! I am gloomy and DEPRESSED! Life is MONOTONOUS this hols... MONOTONOUS! 

When Time is a Limiting Factor...

and when time is a limited factor. I think they have more or less the same meaning... meaning there is not enough time at all to get everything I would like to get done DONE! This is the sad truth of my life, at the very least. Every year, time seems to become SHORTER AND SHORTER AND SHORTER... when I was in Form 1, I seemed to have all the time in the world... I was pretty energetic then... When I got to Form 2, well, I think I had quite a lot of time too. No tuition, no worries, no exam fear, I didn't even have to study that hard... Yes, free as a lark in those years. I feel like an idiot for not enjoying those carefree years more...I was such an IDIOT! I thought that I had to be a good student and all that and STUDY, no fun, nothing... Did I never thing of the future? Yes. I thought of what school I was going to enter in Form 6. I thought of what DEGREE I would get. At my age. How silly. I should have left all that thinking and planning to... to NOW. How foolish I was to think of so many silly things last time that I never took the time off to actually enjoy. I now know that then was nothing to now. Never have I been so busy and so stressed over EXAMS and SCHOOL. To me, it used to be quite fun. Studying used to be a breeze. For some reason, my ability to understand, digest and memorize facts seemed to be more well developed then that of many of the other students. Now I regret not having learned to study like mad. I never had the need to. Till this year. I guess I'll have to double my efforts and work twice as hard then everyone else.  All because I did not learn how to study hard. For some reason, my abilities to understand seem to have been stunted by Physics and Add Math. What is it about these subjects that I have to study so hard to UNDERSTAND? WHAT? Am I STUPID? I actually studied 4 weeks for nothing but these two subjects and Chemistry and all I could score was a B for Add Math and an A- for Physics.

Exams are OVER~

or so, it seems... I do not believe exams will end even temporarily until next year come December. I'll be d*mn if I start slacking now... One week is all I give myself... darn. I'm being too hard on myself... 2 weeks mebbe? xD Hey, I'm young, after all. Who wants to stick around rotting with their nose stuck in books day and night for like, 600 over days? Well, here's some cause for jubilation~

I previously had failed my Add. Math. paper... this term, when it counts, I PASSED :3 erm... the passing mark isn't so nice, so I am not going to announce it to the whole world, but I can tell you that I got more then 50% for the paper~ C'mon, it's a big improvement from FAIL, eh? :D Now I think that all I have to worry about is Physics. I hope to goodness I pass.

It's funny that I used to pray that I would not get a B and feel like I flunked the whole paper. Now I am praying to goodness and wishing on the stars that I will get a passing mark :'(

Oh, and I got my first A+ since this grading system started... for what else? MOD MATH xD Lol, I suppose that wasn't funny, but I'm so HAPPY I passed Add. Math!

This calls for celebration~ let me share some pics that I caught browsing

This is one of my favorites :3 Anti-smoking~

Why I study. 

Kuku~ life is full of interesting things this year, as in every year~

New Falling Star?

I dunno, but over the years I have read of many Hollywood scandals, and read with well... detached disgust and actually, unsympathetic laughter at the poor, poor Hollywood young and what they turn out to be... take Michael Jackson... but he wasn't really my generation, so I didn't know much about him until his death (RIP)... I found it pretty odd that while my classmates didn't know half a song of his before MJ's death, they were all going round about how he was such an AWESOME dude and how they cried at his funeral... I mean, WHAT??! I know he was one h*ll of an awesome dancer, but hey, you didn't care a thing about his music or his existence until his death ==... anyway, I kinda side tracked there...

So there's Britney Spears as well. She's rising up again and I kinda am team Britney if anyone were to insult her, but she had a most awful time, the pop princess did. Got famous young, married young, divorced young, had children young, bad mother, no-underwear pop princess, shave head princess... all sorts of the most interesting things she did...

And then there's Lindsay Lohan (LiLo) One scandal after another, that one... never learns from her mistakes? Steals magazines, dresses, necklaces... And then Miley Cyrus. From innocent little gal in Hannah Montana to erm... scantily-dressed-weird-I-wish-I-could-be-like-Megan-Fox gal? Geeeeezzzzzz

I fear another one of them wonderful gossips coming our way... and this time, we may have a guy :) Justin Bieber has been showing signs of cracking up lately, don't you think? Pointing middle fingers at the papparazi is one great way to show that. Anyway... maybe, just maybe he ain't such a nut case... after all, he is a bit of a prankster, think the time this guy haked into his friend's account and he posted the poor dude's number on his Twitter account... what a nightmare! Imagine having thousands of girls from 3 to 83 calling and messaging you: JB, MARRY ME! or JB, I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER DUMP SELENA GOMEZ or some such-------

Anyways, whatever, I maintain my stand of being absolutely neutral in the JB-love-hate world----

you gotta admit, though, such a sweet couple <3 Ahhh~ to be young and in love... 

The Problem with Calculators...

If you are using the calculator Casio fx-570MS, chances are that if you type in 6÷2(1+2) you will get the answer 1. It's wrong. The answer's 9. You will get it right if you are using Casio fx-50FH or some of the newer versions. Not to worry if you are using the older versions, cause it ain't coming out in the exams. Apparently, however, once you've done the numbers in the bracket, you'll have to follow the sequence first, meaning divide before multiplication. 

Also, if you are a Physics student, be warned to reset all your modes on our calculator before the exam, or when you use 'sin', 'cos' and 'tan' you are likely to get a wrong answer... phew, I only discovered this just before the exam when my friend's calculator kept getting the answers in negative and other people's calculator got the correct answers........ 

Cool Photos...

I was surfing around, and I was amazed and intrigued by somethings that came out of other people's minds... and I wanted to share them HERE...

Magical >3 I mean, this idea of using rainbow colors is not exactly novel, but I never get tired of it... it's so AWESOME!

Incredibly, this beautiful work of art is made of paper... Clicky... the site I found this pic on has much more to show~

There's more... *rubs eyes* ouch, it hurts to look at them.

How would you like to wear jewelry (yes, JEWELRY!) like THAT? 

Glowing dress, anybody? 

I think this building in Poland is REAL O_____o

New Background Image

In conjunction with Earth Day, I have decided to change my background image temporarily... It looks great, I think <3

Tis a Casual Post

Meaning that the beginning of this post holds nothing of importance. It is simply a random rant. I shall type and type until I find something to type about... a lot of people find this habit of mine weird~ but let me assure you it is very useful when you want to write an essay. It's a pity I can't do the same when I talk. I find it very difficult to hold a conversation with my mouth. Now, if I were to hold a written conversation, it would be the other person that runs out of something to say first, not me! For some reason, the part of my brain connected to my hands works far faster than the part connected to my mouth... that is, if they are different parts at all... LOL. Who knows the mysteries of the human brain? It is interesting that humans are trying to understand their surroundings, but don't even understand themselves! Yeah, I know the saying is clichéd, but it certainly holds a lot of truth. It's just like humans wanting to explore outer space when they haven't even explored the depths of the Earth, their own home! Hmmm.. I am talking as if I'm not a human.

Okay, here's a thing to write about. On the 18th April 2011, we said our goodbyes to our PK HEM, Mr Wong Kum Ming, now the PK 1 at SMJK Confucian... I suppose I never really knew him very well because he taught our Add. Math class for only four months before leaving. But during that tie, I really grew to like him. He thought us pretty well, I think, although I'm sorry, but I never understood anything until I reviewed the notes he made us copy again. His classes were always interesting because he always told jokes... or he did lame stuff - I'm sorry again- but his actions were... wait for it... endearing. I particularly remember the time he did the trick with Alicia's water. He certainly fooled me. I really thought he had drunk her water. Turned out that he had licked his other finger == and there was the time when he wanted to replace the tissue box that we kept our duster in, and it kept falling, so he was like:" MALIMALIHOME!" and we all burst out laughing. I envy the students who are gonna be thought by him in Confucian.

To Confucian students: YOU DUNNNO HOW GOOD YOU ALL'VE GOT IT!!!

Must Move FORWARD!!!

I love reading fantasy stories. Especially those that are about a world/worlds that just sprouted from somebody's over-imaginative, over-free or over-active mind. Among my favorites are Diana Wynne Jone's Chrestomanci series, Robert Jordan's the Wheel of Time series, and definitely J.R.R Tolkien's The Lord of the Rings (you can't say you are a fan of fantasy until you've read this). The world has lost great minds... most recently Diana Wynne Jones... she was my favorite author of all time.

Anyway, in these stories there are beautiful women, beautiful men, magic powers, fantastic adventures... anything that would ordinarily never happen in our own dull, mundane world. But one thing I am most particularly fond of is the BATTLES! Most of the time (if not all the time), fantasy stories revolve around many battles, chief among theses the battle of Good VS Evil. There is something just so fascinating about this theme. Many stories, not just fantasy stories center about this theme. What is so intriguing about Good and Evil? ... ... I have no answer to that... it's just a thought, a Muse,you might say, considering the title of my blog.

So what has the title of this post got to do with all the above? Well, recently I have been feeling rather down... among them being my poor exam results, and also certain personal issues that I'll be d*mn if I am going to share them online for everyone to view xD... I was sitting down basically reminiscing(is that the word?) on the past and trying to understand Add. Math, when suddenly this voice suddenly shouted in my head: 

"FORWARD! FORWARD THE FLAG OF..."

I dunno what went after, but it must have been one of the flags in the fantasy stories I have read. It is a common battle cry, and it's usually shouted when the hero appears when all hope seems lost... I actually was inspired and stopped feeling down for a while! I know it sounds crazy... my problems now are nothing like a battle... but I felt inspired... LOL, maybe you don't, since you aren't a fantasy nut like me, but I hope all of you will leave the past behind and move FORWARD! FORWARD! in your lives :) 

   

Life, oh, life, WHERE art thou???

Sometimes, I wonder....

WHY AM I DOING THIS?

WHY AREN'T I DOING THAT? 

WHY CAN'T I LIE DOWN AND... AND PRETEND THERE'S NOTHING GOING ON???! 

And then I feel depressed. I haven't felt this way in a long, long time. Until I sat for this month's exam. During Physics, I felt like I hated it. But, well I thought: "Oh, well. Life's like that. I need to work harder. Admittedly I hardly studied physics." 

And then, today, I sat for my Add Math paper, thinking that it would be well... not easy, but not very hard either. After all, it's just quadratic and linear equations, no functions and odd processes and all that. 

How was I to know it would be mind-twistingly difficult? And it pains me to say that some people called it 'a piece of cake' It really PAINS me! Call it pride, arrogance, whatever, but I have always disliked being inferior, especially academic-wise. Maybe you might call it 'chinese-mentality'. 

Half way through the ****** paper, I wanted to just lie down and give up. My brain was throbbing the questions were easy enough to understand. But the ANSWERS... they were eluding me! They hated me! I would not have minded if after a lot of thinking and experimenting, I completed the question. But I didn't. I did the questions HALFWAY through, and couldn't go further. 

WHY AM I DOING THIS? WHY AM I LEARNING ADD MATH???? WHY? WHAT USE WOULD IT BE TO ME? 

But I realized now. I was learning it because I couldn't give up just like that. I am going to gut this add math subject and lay it out in strips so I can understand the ****** thing even if it's just to repair my pride.

Water Rocket

So, our class 4S1 used our free-period on Thursday (The Chemistry teacher was on a course in Melaka :D) to do a Physics EXPERIMENT :D We tried and tried and had more failures then successes... the odd thing was that the bottle with the 'wings' or the 'flippers' whatever-you-call-them couldn't fly, while the bottle without any obstructions flew like a bird~ I dunno what on Earth we did wrong... anyway there were a lot of epic failures, and we had to use Keshav as our 'lucky charm'. More likely the bottle couldn't stand the sight of him either. LOLxD

Gee, I seem to remember having a lot more to type, but I can't remember a thing now... Whoops >< 

Government

Last night, when we were all eating dinner, we started talking about governments, mostly about Tunisia and Egypt and Libya, you know, those North Africa countries that are going through a revolution...

So I asked my little brother-he's nine this year- 

"What's a government?" 

He innocently answered:

"Some body who sits around doing nothing but still can earn money wan." 

LOL.

Rooney and the Magic Kick :D

Oh, man... WHAT an AWESOME overhead kick that D:
And Fernando Torres thought he had moved to a big club... 
I think I might die of laughter.
GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED <3

Rosie Huntington-Whiteley VS Megan Fox

        Megan Fox                                                                        Rosie Huntington-Whiteley

Okay, so here's my conclusion after looking at photos of both of them. Megan Fox is hot and sexy. But Rosie is pretty and cute. They are both... so different that to compare them would be like comparing an orange and an apple. 

Megan Fox looks like the sort of girl you had imagine kicking ass next to a James Bond sort of person, or the heroin  herself... though admitedly acting isn't her strong point and she could never compete with Angelina Jolie for the role of Lara Croft. 

Rosie is that sort you might imagine as the girl next door, or acting the role of the angel... rather boring, but she's got a body, oh yes. To be sure if she is a sucker at acting, she will still be eye candy... 

Hmm... but I do think Megan Fox is either more photogenic, or she looks younger... I do prefer Megan Fox. Lets hope Transformers 3 will change my mind... 

C'mon Rosie, I hope you can do it, good luck :) To be sure, your name is a lot longer and more queenly then Megan Fox's...

Final Conclusion

The pink and purple background with streaks of white set off the giant ball of golden fire that was the sun as it sank majestically behind the mountains, unhurriedly making way for darkness to fall. The shadows lengthened and mothers called their children into the safety of their homes to a delicious dinner that would be followed by a story sitting by a cozy fireplace. Men working hard to earn the bread to feed hungry mouths at home put away their tools and gathered together for a drink or two and a chat with fellow workers before returning home to the bosom of their wives and families and a hot dinner to look forward to.

At long last, the night descended on the world, shrouding it in mystery and blackness. The moon hung, a shining silver ball in the sky accompanied by twinkling stars, their light combined to shine on the path of those who came home after dusk. Shortly after the moon was at it's brightest, the night fairies awoke and upon the light, gentle breezes of the night, hanging on large dandelion seeds and with the flying petals of the night flowers, they came hither from their bedding holes and the sheltering leaves of the bushes where they slept, awaiting the farewell of the sun that they may stand in the silvery rays of the moon and dance and glitter and delight the eyes of any who saw them. 

Now the windows glowed with the warm light of fire and children sat in a ring around their parents who held thick books in their calloused hands and told tales of times long past and times to come, of adventures and mysteries and fantastic happenings... And the children listened with eagerness, laughing and gasping at the doings of the people of old and new. And soon, the clock struck for bedtime, and all the little children were tucked into bed with a kiss on the forehead with a prayer and a wish for sweet dreams.

(I forgot what I was gonna write ><) 

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If I told you all the flowers were wilting,

Would you still smile at me that way?

If I showed you half a butterfly wing,

Would your heart still feel so bright?

If I brought you to see the dying trees,

Of leaves all yellow, brown and sickly,

So sad, so sad, so sad a scene...

Would you steal hold my hand so firmly?

If I sang you a song of the End,

Would you still live so gaily?

If I opened the door,

And the gray light washed out the color of the room,

Would your eyes still dance so fine?

If I could shield you from all that,

All that, oh so unsightly, oh so sad...

Oh in any way that may be so great (so great),

Yet that I would do to save you from all that. 

Mountains

I like mountains. 

I like islands. 

I like being alone. 

But I live in a city, 

I can't be like this, 

I gotta communicate, 

I gotta live. 

There's a breeze in my mind,

A coldness on my skin,

But in front of my eyes,

I see only people.

Waves of people,

Floods of people,

Many people,

Hundreds,

Billions.

There are things that I wish,

That I want to believe.

Things that make me smile.

There are things that I want,

But not what I need,

But there's no stopping the longing.

I stood on a mountain,

I stood in an island,

I heard a gentle breeze.

But when I opened my eyes,

My gaze was filled,

Once more, 

An ordinary day. 

Proof...

... that Justin Bieber's voice was never the 'IT'... it was his hair O__o||| Maybe it's just me... but his hair looks so weird... mind you, I ain't no Justin Bieber hater... but I ain't a fan either. I'm just an innocent by-stander. LOL.

Okay...

I shall get down to writing something... This year there has been nothing to write about yet...

I shall put a few pics in, to give this post some volume. No hope for mass...