There are times when you just feel so down and out and times when you just want to lie down and wait for death. They are more or less one and the same. It happens to people of all age groups, regardless. But it usually happens to the older, more experienced, wiser people.... or so, they say. Sometimes, I feel like that too. Sometimes, like right now. Right now, feeling so tired, so down, so out, for no good reason at all. 

Why? Why?  Why?

I don't know... hormones, is that it? No, it's the world in general. I cannot take the reality anymore anymore anymore anymore anymore... Just want to lie down and give it up give it up give it up. But living is an instinct, how many people walk the earth, a body with no spirit and no soul, that smiles at you but behind those eyes lies nothing nothing. It's empty just empty nothing but lies. 

Drama Practice

Finally, something to write about.

We had drama practice yesterday :D

Of course, it didn't really go as planned because there was some activity (check-stock) going on outside, and everyone kept running in and out of the multimedia to help.

The script underwent a lot of changes...

Quite fun, I had say :X

Got pretty good actors <3

------ come to think about it, not much to write, but at least it's something~ If I went into detail, it had take hours to finish...

Hello...

HELLO! *echoes* HELLO!

I am so tired.

Updating this blog is not fun anymore :(

So I just wanted to make it look a teeny bit livelier...

So here is this post.

Now I am saying goodbye again, because there really isn't anything of interest to type about these days.

Oh... man, this is so *sob* touching... :'(

The Many Intriguing Cures for Acne

(not sure if they will work, because well, I never tried them) And I never had reason to try them because I have never suffered from acne very much, though no doubt some of you vain, frilly ladies (and some gentlemen) may think differently. After doing some research (for a school assignment) I discovered that I too was an unknowing sufferer of acne! D: I have a few (actually, quite a lot) of white heads on my forehead, and black heads on my nose >< Now you all know my secrets!!! Though if you looked at me carefully you had know anyway, so oh, well... Oh, and I also have an occasional pimple or two on my face (usually either on my nose or forehead, though once or twice I had it on my cheeks). According to www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov, acne is a common skin disease that causes excessive 'oiling' or 'sebuming'... (sebum is the human body's natural oil) which clogs up your pores and gives you blackheads, whiteheads and painful pimples. The blackheads, I believe, (I did not really read through carefully) is caused by *gasp* rancid oil clogging your pores!!! EWWWWWW... I am not really sure what whiteheads are, but the site said that it was a collection of skin and oil... what does that mean? 


Anyway... coming to the topic of my blogpost. I was researching home remedies, what you could find in your own home that you could put on your acne to make it go away. Well, I guess I hit on normal stuff like toothpaste and baking soda and lime... but there are other things :)


YOUR OWN URINE...


Some people actually tried it, and it worked :o if the internet is actually to be trusted. There was this guy, I think it was on www.homeremedies.com, he or she (come to think of it) collected some of the urine and dabbed it on the pimples with a cotten bud. AND IT WORKED! *GASP* Well... I don't really have the right to speak, but even if I had a severe case of acne, with acne all down to my butt, h*ll, no way am I going to do THAT!


Garlic


Yuck. Having that smell lingering all over your face after applying it. Apparently it works because it has anti-inflammatory (however you spell the word) properties and will stop your acne from becoming all red and puffy... ah, but do not despair. Apparently mint (I am not sure what species) works just as well.All hail mint!


Apple Cider Vinegar


I dunno about the Westerners, but seeing this on the list gave me quite a turn. Applying vinegar to our face...BATHING with it. OMGosh. I was most skeptical regarding this 'cure' because I had learnt in school that it was the acidity of the sebum that made your acne inflamed. What good would it be to apply vinegar, which probably has a pH level of 3 or something along there? But a lot of people, all Westerners, I believe, are willing to swear by it. I guess there must be something behind this. Okay, colds, fevers, body odour, acne... Is this some sort of miracle cure? I, a South East Asian, seriously doubt it. But you never know, maybe the genetic make up of the Westerners help them. Weird people, them. 


There are some other stuff, I suppose, many of them include recipes, some Chinese, some African, other cultures... I believe some of them involved... ummm... stuff, you can imagine, huh?


Oh, and I discovered some interesting stuff. Did you know, the Greek Philosophers Aristotle and Socrates actually wrote about acne? Some of the Pharaohs of Egypt actually suffered from acne. Hehe~ and the ancient Romans believed it was contagious. Imagine, I wonder what would have happened if they decided to keep all acne-sufferers at bay like lepers. They had probably become extinct, because all the teenagers would have it! HAHAHAAHHAAAA... okay, not funny, but still...

Feeling Gloomy

I am feeling gloomy. It's not an emotion I tend to take much notice of unless I am bored, but there it is, I am in fact quite busy right now, yet I feel so gloomy... Not the pleasant, gloomy feeling you get on a sunless or rainy day. It's the I am so lonely, so aimless sort of gloomy I am feeling now. Perhaps it is because I just miss my friends at school. I miss acting the unpredictable one, the one that never acts in the way other people want, the one that says the most remarkably silly things that some people seem to think is AWESOME, and say so... I feel so flattered, then. I even miss having homework and stuff like that. I even miss my TEACHERS. Gosh... sometimes I wish I had tuition. Sometimes... is this human nature? Why are we so confusing? I have been trying for a long time to robotify myself, without success. Whenever I feel I may have succeeded, something crops up and I burst out laughing or crying... What am I TALKING about?! I am gloomy and DEPRESSED! Life is MONOTONOUS this hols... MONOTONOUS! 

When Time is a Limiting Factor...

and when time is a limited factor. I think they have more or less the same meaning... meaning there is not enough time at all to get everything I would like to get done DONE! This is the sad truth of my life, at the very least. Every year, time seems to become SHORTER AND SHORTER AND SHORTER... when I was in Form 1, I seemed to have all the time in the world... I was pretty energetic then... When I got to Form 2, well, I think I had quite a lot of time too. No tuition, no worries, no exam fear, I didn't even have to study that hard... Yes, free as a lark in those years. I feel like an idiot for not enjoying those carefree years more...I was such an IDIOT! I thought that I had to be a good student and all that and STUDY, no fun, nothing... Did I never thing of the future? Yes. I thought of what school I was going to enter in Form 6. I thought of what DEGREE I would get. At my age. How silly. I should have left all that thinking and planning to... to NOW. How foolish I was to think of so many silly things last time that I never took the time off to actually enjoy. I now know that then was nothing to now. Never have I been so busy and so stressed over EXAMS and SCHOOL. To me, it used to be quite fun. Studying used to be a breeze. For some reason, my ability to understand, digest and memorize facts seemed to be more well developed then that of many of the other students. Now I regret not having learned to study like mad. I never had the need to. Till this year. I guess I'll have to double my efforts and work twice as hard then everyone else.  All because I did not learn how to study hard. For some reason, my abilities to understand seem to have been stunted by Physics and Add Math. What is it about these subjects that I have to study so hard to UNDERSTAND? WHAT? Am I STUPID? I actually studied 4 weeks for nothing but these two subjects and Chemistry and all I could score was a B for Add Math and an A- for Physics.